why am I always thinking about my weight?
why am I never satisfied?
why do I only want what I don’t have?
why do I question every move I make?
why am I always on my phone?
why am I the way that I am?
why do I worry all hours of the day?
…and all hours of the night?
why am I so vain?
why do I always compare myself?
why am I so hard on myself?
why do I give up so easily?
why am I a hard ass?
why am I afraid?
why am I weak?
why am I always wanting more?
why do I question the stars in the sky?
why am I always thinking about my weight?
why do I curate chaos in my mind?
why am I my own worst enemy?
why am I not further along?
why do I underestimate myself?
why am I happy?
…because I choose to be <3
but, why…